Focus

This is annoying. I think of a new name for my blog more often than I actually POST on my blog! It's quite comical actually. But I think my desire to re-name my blog represents something deeper in me. It represents where my focus is...

I re-named my blog to Kelsa On The Run because I thought it was rather clever, really. I thought it would be a good way to represent the pace of my life. But also, at the end of last year I decided I want to run a local half-marathon this coming November. Well, um, uh, you see...I haven't been running, or jogging, or even walking for crying out loud! So yeah, we'll see about that. But I digress.

Healthy living is a big focus for me (obviously more on the eating side of things than the exercise side as of late) but some days I'm a little more focused on hair/outer beauty, and I want to re-name my blog. Some days I'm more focused on inner beauty or my relationship with God, and I want to re-name my blog. Some days I'm more focused on building my businesses, and I want to re-name my blog. And still, some days I'm more focused on my role as a wife. You've got it, I want to re-name my blog then too! Sometimes I wonder why I can't focus on each of these things, each day, in proportion to their rank in my priorities.

Oh, the "P" word. It's kind of a scary word for me. I bet if you're honest it's kind of a scary word for you too! I know what order my priorities should be in: God, Husband, Family/Friends, Work. But what if there were a better way to classify priorities than in a LIST? I looooove lists, don't get me wrong, they keep me sane at times! But I also recognize the limitations of lists, and I do believe this might be one of those times.

What if a singular focus caused everything else to fall into its proper place? What if instead of my focus going in different directions on different days, it always went to God? What if no matter what my day holds, what lessons or trials unfold, the overarching theme was a life lived for God? That would be pretty awesome! I say I want that, I strive for it. But so often I let my focus wander and I find myself spending all day pouring over healthy living blogs, or christian life blogs, or planning things for my businesses. These things are all good things, but not when they are my focus.

The Bible says that "no one can serve two masters..." (Matthew 6:24) So who am I serving each day? Is it God or someone/something else? That is a question I need to ask myself. Each morning, every moment of every day in fact, I need to consciously decide Who I will serve.